Sometimes I think I will never be okay again. I know I will never be the same.
Accidentally Nina
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Sometimes I think I will never be okay again. I know I will never be the same.
Accidentally Nina 
In July, we lost our first baby to anencephaly at 19.5 weeks. I too endured the emotional and physical trauma of a D & E (the day of the laminaria insertion ranks as one of the saddest of my life!). I’ve read (and cried) through every entry of your blog this morning. You have no idea how helpful reading your experience has been. Each day gets a little easier, but I often think the same thing, that I’ll never be OK again. There is comfort in hearing someone else say those words. Thank you for posting, and I hope you are well!
04.08.15 us too, at 12 weeks, I don’t think I will ever be as happy as I was and know I will never be that happy again.
Hi Claire, I don’t know if I will ever be as happy again. But I have found happiness. I don’t think you ever change back. In some ways it was a growing experience – certainly one in understanding other people’s pain and trying to empathize. It took me a long time. Let me know if there is anything I can do.